I was once the childless woman on Mother's Day. For six years, we longed to be parents and wondered if we would ever be blessed with that which seemed to come so easily for everyone but us. Then came our Benjamin and I was finally able to celebrate Mother's Day with a child in my arms. I have also been the bereaved woman on Mother's Day. After only two years of joyful celebrations, Mother's Day became bittersweet for me because of my daughter's death. I celebrated for the child in my arms and grieved for the child I could no longer hold. I wondered if Mother's Day would ever be joyful for me again. Now I am the waiting mother; waiting for a 4th Mother's Day for our rainbow to come; full of hope and longing for the day she will finally be here; full of joy for the child still in my arms; and, by the grace of God, full of peace over the child I am no longer able to hold, but will see again one day in Heaven. I now see Mother's Day so differently. I see it as an opportunity to send a card to a bereaved mother whose child cannot be in her arms this Mother's Day. And a way to love on the mothers who are taking care of sick children who may not be here for another Mother's Day. It's also an opportunity to care about the women who want to be mothers, but are on the infertility rollercoaster and grieving each month for the child that was not conceived, as well as all of the motherless daughters and sons whose mother's are not here to be celebrated. Mother's Day is bittersweet for so many people. Please take time this weekend to reach out to a mother who needs your love.
And for my friends who are childless or missing a child this Mother's Day (and those who love them), this is for you ...
Here's the latest update on the situation in Russia. The next meeting is scheduled for May 12th. It looks hopeful and we've received updates from our agency indicating that adoptions are still going through during negotiations. We won't be sure how this affects our timeline until this summer. Please keep praying that the process will not be delayed unnecessarily and that the doors to Russia remain open!
Today we were given "A Hope Blessing" (baby shower) for Hope. Since we don't know how big she is yet, everyone gave gift cards, money and special mementos for her memory book. My favorite gift was a frame of our family, including Abby, and an opening for a photo of Hope. It was nice that someone thought to include her, too! Here are some pictures from the party. It was meant to be a surprise, but it turned out that I couldn't come at the time the party was planned, so they told me. But I did not know who was invited until I showed up (Chad and his mom made up the guest list) or what the theme of the party was. Thank you Chad and "Nana" Linda for making "Hope's Blessing" a special day ...
Another photograph to wrestle in my head Another sleepless night on concrete featherbed These thoughts of you like bullets to my soul We’ve got to find a way to get you home
I’ll find a way to get you here If it takes my fleeting breath Another sunrise hits the ground And it’s a dark lonely sight Lightyears away I hope you know There is somebody searching For the way to get you here
I will get you here
Throw the clocks away and run out to the street
We’ll fly to distant clouds where it’s just you and me A day will come when all of this is gone
You’ve got to find a way to believe
I’ll find a way to get you here If it takes my fleeting breath Another sunrise hits the ground And it’s a dark lonely sight Lightyears away I hope you know There is somebody searching For the way to get you here I will get you here
Close your eyes and dream of a better day with me As angels hold you tight, may you sleep in peace tonight
So dream, dream, dream my child Hear the whisperings of hope
It’s a song that you can sing, as you sleep in peace tonight
Here is another update on Russia Intercountry Adoption. The Department of State has received no official notification that adoptions from Russia to the United States have been suspended. However, it appears that the adoption process has slowed down.
Volcanic ash prevented the U.S. delegation from traveling to Moscow over the April 17th weekend. The delegation now plans to travel to Moscow during the week of April 25. Please continue to pray that the door to intercountry adoption in Russia remains open!!
Here is an update on the current situation in Russia. Despite news to the contrary, it appears that adoptions have NOT been suspended. In fact, our agency has reported that several American families currently in Russia have been permitted to proceed with their adoptions. A delegation from the US State Department is scheduled to meet with Russian officials next week in Moscow regarding the ongoing situation. While there is always the risk of shutdown in international adoption, including Russia, most insiders are optimistic and do not believe the situation regarding the Russian adoptee from Tennessee will lead to a shutdown of adoptions to American families.
We are waiting patiently through this with HOPE and trusting God for the outcome. We know His heart is for the orphan, so He surely cares about this even more than we do! Please continue to pray for us while we wait and for all of the families and children who are waiting, too. Thanks for all of your prayers and encouragement the last few days and for taking time to sign the petition this week. We will keep you posted as we hear more!!
"Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world." ~ James 1:27
A year ago today, we found out that our application to begin the process of adopting a child internationally was accepted and we officially began our "Journey to Hope!" By now you have heard the news about the 7 year old boy who was put on a plane and "returned" to the Ministry of Education in Russia by his American adoptive mother after living in America for only 6 months. Russia was and is currently still open to adoptions by foreign citizens. We just found out last month that we have been assigned a region and are less than 4-6 months away from our first trip to finally meet Hope after a year of waiting. Now, due to the current crisis, the Ministry for Foreign Affairs and the Child's Rights Ombudsmen in Russia have called for a suspension on adoption to U.S. citizens. We need your help!
Please help keep the doors to intercountry adoption open so we can continue on our journey to bring Hope home from Russia. The Joint Council on International Child Services (JCICS) has issued a call to action for people who have adopted, are in the process of adopting, or know someone who is adopting to help children in Russia who are in need of a permanent and safe family (as well as helping waiting families bring home their adopted children). Suspending adoption does not protect children but only subjects them to the depravity of an institution, and an entire life without a family. Please take a moment to visit the link below and sign the letter being sent to President Obama and President Medvedev before Tuesday night. There are also some other ideas listed on their website for ways you can help.
Not flesh of my flesh
Nor bone of my bone,
But still miraculously my own.
Never forget for a single minute,
You didn't grow under my heart,
But in it.
~ Fleur Conkling Heylinger
About Us
We are the biological parents of three beautiful children: Benjamin, 9, Abigail, who would now be 6, and the tiny baby we miscarried in 2008, affectionately named Zacchaeus by his then 4 year old big brother, Ben. We lost Abby during labor in 2006 and, after a long road of stillbirth, miscarriage, and infertility, began our adoption journey in 2008. After almost three years of waiting, our sweet rainbow girl, Galina "Hope", finally came home from Russia on 11/9/11. This is the story of our "Journey to Hope!"
To follow our adoption journey from the beginning, click here:
"Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world." ~ James 1:27